Blizz,

I also understand what you are saying
Others people's happiness is also alot harder to take
When I found out that a collegue at school was pregnant it took all my energy not to find a carving knife or scream out to the universe - this is so UNFAIR - why does she get the dream run and I have to struggle and struggle to try and have a child?

PS Don't worry, usuallly I don't have fantasies about chasing people with knives but this particular person is completely obnoxious and it really underlined how unfair infertility is.

I hit that hole of
"how many bad things can keep happening to one couple, everything we did or tried to do kept turning to S#*!!, It is really hard to see your way out of the hole that you feel like your sitting at the bottom of.
earlier this year. The only thing I can say to you that with time and communication you can claw your way out of it, but it always sits there menacing on the edge of your thoughts.

But the good thing is that we all DID make it through this year - maybe not with the grace we had hoped, but we made it. And I think that's got to count for something, doesn't it??