Donor Conception General Chatter #4

[Caramello]

Oh good, I'm not the only one that does the late night creep around the house!

Dog can be like that occasionally, actually it's usually when DH is not home and he feels the need to bark more.

I'd be rather tense about a guy with a gun under his bed too!

Are you enjoying your pizza? I hope so!

[blizz]

yep! pizza was yummy ate more than I should, but not the whole thing.
The glass of wine went straight to my head and has been making me make heaps of typos I really haven't drunk much since my PG so I'm a one pot screamer now LOL
Think that wine is making me sleepy or it could be the huge week I've just put in I'm giving myself to 10:30 then I'm toddling off to bed.

[Caramello]

SNAP,

Just about to write to you and say that I'm also going to bed.

LOL at one pot screamer!

Talk soon Blizz - thanks for listening!

[blizz]

no worries honey,
wishing you a full night sleep with no wake ups!!!!and I'm happy to listen any time just returning the favour

[Malyna]

I used to have a beagle as a child and they bay constantly when left alone. he was such a funny dog.. bullied by cats, he would often try and climb a tree after chasing the cat across the backyard.

i've got two cats, one thinks he is a dog (he will roll onto his side and wait for a belly scratch) and the other is DH's little girl. He went away for a week when she was only a few months old. The next day, she curled up on his lap and stayed there for 5 hours, she laid on her back and sucked his finger (I have a photo).. They are peas in a pod those two. The dogcat was rescued from a shed with 22 other cats, he is such a gentle natured boy and just loves to sit in the garden (regardless of the weather) and feel the dirt under his paws. My il's complain that we treat our cats like humans and often say "when are you going to treat your cats like cats" - I guess when they start behaving like cats and stop behaving like dogcats or spoilt princesses!
We have deadlocks on our living area (we have a stodgy sunroom out the back but who would steel my ancient washing machine, which doesn't fit down the backstairs anyway?). Half the windows in the house don't open and those that do, don't stay opened, so unless you could get through a tiny gap you couldn't get it,plus there would be a stampede of cats leaving the house, so the burglar would more likely be pushed out of the window backwards with a big, fat, grumpy ginger cat!

[blizz]

morning ladies, hey gargy that wish I sent you about a goodnight sleep with no wake ups!!!!!.......should have wished it for myself as well, my little princess decided to wake every 2 hours with her final wake up at 6:00am with a definate I'm ready to get up NOW mummy LOL, so much for that sleep in I was planning.
Instead we have watched the wiggles big red car and have now moved to hi5, I think a nanna nap at about 10:00am might be in order.
Tarkine, don't think I'd want to tangle with the cats either LOL, I still think Beagles are cute but we are a one dog family I think (sheppy only just coped with the interloper baby girl) He really does love her i just think she pulled his fur once too often so now he gives her a wide berth he loves her from that distance though he gets really aggitated if I pull up in the car and haven't got Paige with me it's like "ok... What have you done with her?....go and get her now!!!!"
when she goes to bed at night he seeks out the clothes she was wearing that day and tucks them under him and sleeps on them.
Paige has started picking up sheppy's toys and he sits to attention wagging his tail like "yep thats the way, you throw it to me!!!" I can see that they will be the best of mates in a year or two.
They will probably both consol each other if we are able to bring another baby in to our family.

[Caramello]

Wow - it's afternoon already!

I am currently sneaking on the internet at Macquarie Uni while DH goes and gets his books for his course that starts soon. He's doing a BA majoring in History with possibly a Dip Ed as well.

Sorry Blizz, I also did the wake up thing every couple of hours. I think part of the problem is not being used to having a window partially open when I sleep. It has a security grill over it but I still am not quite comfortable sleeping there yet. Oh well, I will get used to it in time!

Sorry your night was so crappy too - does this mean that the cleaning is off?

Paige and Sheppy have a really great relationship - that's excellent news. So cute about the clothes and toys!

Tarkine,
LOL about the Beagle trying to climb a tree. I think the one next store is feeling a bit neglected as there is a new baby in the house and he is on his own quite often.

Aww - your cats sound so cute!!

I'm thinking that the whole scared of crime thing was set off by last Friday as well as being overanxious. I've felt unsafe ever since that guy tried to break into my bedroom (by the way I've just realised that was 20 years ago!!) I think our house is reasonably hard to get into - I hope so. I think it's just part of the overall panic I am experiencing.

Had a dream last night that I was spotting - I hope that doesn't auger anything...

Anyway, must go, haven't eaten anything for lunch and I'm feeling a bit dizzy (are either of you on metformin? I find this a side affect if i don't eat within two hours even though I'm not diabetic. I'd get it occasionally before I took the tablets, but not as bad as I do now. I also know when I've missed the medication, as I had to the other day when I ran out - you can really feel the difference once you have them).

Anyway, I am rambling...have a great day everyone...talk soon...

[Malyna]

No I'm not on anything at the moment. The FS is waiting til closer to the date we can legally get our hands on the sperm and then he will start his poking and prodding

[blizz]

hey I wouldn't worry about the dream, I think that one of the hang ups of the IVF program is you tend to get the mind set of expecting things to fail, I kept having these thoughts through the early part of my PG i didn't really relax until the last trimester, So think positive thoughts and tell your sub- concious to knock it off already!!!!I can't honestly remember but I don't think I've taken metformin before it's been a little while since I've had to do the treatment side of things my FET's are running on my natural cycle so apart from the scans and poas for LH surge I haven't had to have any other assistance at this point (I'm starting to have the thought that I may be doing another egg harvest shortly but I'm still holding out hope for my remaining 4 snowbubs but I will admit that my confidence in them was a little shaken after Nov '07)
Hubbie's course sounds interesting I studied 20th century history and ancient civilizations at college and I enjoyed them.
Did a bit of cleaning while Paige slept this morning I can see the dining room table again so I must be getting some where, then my mum came down and pi$$ed me off so I've been watching Will and Grace on Austar, but that is a story for another time don't have the energy to delve in to that dilema at this stage.
I'm thinking that instead of posting I'm going to clean my home office, DH has started his own buisness in his spare time LOL!!!! So I should try to get some order in here at least it will make it a little more pleasant to spend time on BB, and will stop my throwing important bills in a pile on the desk and burying them under a mountain more of paper work (just got a letter to say that our late fee for GE creditline has gone from $20 to $35 and I am guilty of having a few late payments over the last few months due to a lack of organisation so I want to avoid this in the future I think)
Well I'm going to brave our Cr@ppy weather and head to the supermarket Huggies nappies are on sale saving $11 which is awesome and I need some paper trays to tame my out of control office so I'll talk to you lovely ladies a bit later on.
ps. I don't think there is a solution to the home invaision nervesm we'll both have to work on taming our over active imaginations

[Malyna]

Gargy, the cats are cute except when they do the 4am Olympics through the bedroom. Blizz, when you've organised your space, can you come and organise mine? I promise you a front row seat at the cat olympics - they include sprints, wrestling, and loads of hissing and growling.

I love paige and Sheppy's relationship also. Those two will be inseparable

[blizz]

Girls
I just wanted to check something with you, I was just reading something that Sushee posted in another thread and It made me stop and think for a minute that maybe I am guilty of it too, the thread concerned was a LTTTC one and the issue was about not talking about your children on this thread out of respect for others who are having difficulties concieving, I just wanted to make sure that I wasn't offending anyone on this thread either I have a subtle reason for talking about Paige here and it is hopefully to let you know how we've managed to adapt to and adore our baby who was concieved with DS, because I know heading in to this process it was one of my DH's concerns as to how the DS thing would work and how he was concerned about what his feelings might be towards any child concieved in this way, we realise our journey may be different to yours but the bonding thing was so not an issue in anyway for us and I just wanted to share that with you.
Please let me know if it troubles you so I can be more concious of it in future and I promise I won't be offended, if you are concerned please pm me if you prefer
thanks Allie
I know this sounds silly and probably a bit simple of me but when I'm talking with you girls for some reason it never enters my mind that you won't be successful in this process, so I don't mean to be insensitive if it appears that way

[Malyna]

It doesn't bother me Blizz.

[blizz]

thanks Tarkine,
That's nice to know because you girls are my salvation at the moment it is awesome to talk with others in a similar situation makes you feel like your not the only person in the world that this is happening to.

[Caramello]

Blizz,

I have no problem whatsoever about you talking/writing about your DD Paige.

I think it's a great affirmation of the process working. Also, she is part of your life, like your DH.

Actually I had this thought this morning too when I was rabbiting on about things other than SD, and wondering whether I should be in general chatter.

Then I thought - this is about my mind/emotions as well as the process, so as long as people don't mind I'll talk about day to day stuff too.

Re the other post - wish it was that easy to tell my subconcious to shut up!

We've got the same problem too re bills etc - we had a great system in the old place, but then we moved and now everythings everywhere. Hopefully we'll get organised soon.

Sorry your Mum caused you some dramas.

Tarkine,

Yes, our cat has taken to running up and down the hallway, particularly at 5 am when he believes we should be getting ready to wake up and feed him. He was MOST unimpressed that we had a sleep in this morning, and spent the last 1/2 hour Meowing outside the door.

We deliberately shut the door to keep him out, after his 4am wake up call the first night we were here.

DH and I are going out for a walk. Talk soon!

[blizz]

Gargy
lol about the sub concious thing if only it were that easy, Yeah I don't think we can ever turn that off, just keep thinking positive thoughts I'm sending you all of my positive thoughts as well.

I'm glad you girls don't mind me talking about dd it's hard not to bring her in to conversation as there is only the three of us Paige, Sheppy and I alot of the time.
I truely hope you will be chatting to me about your own children in the near future!!!!!

Gargy,
I love hearing about what's happening in your life it helps me understand more where you are coming from and I understand what a release it is to be able to talk about your life to others.
I'm honestly telling you guys more than I thought I would when I started posting I've always regarded the DS thing as DH's story to tell if he chooses but I realise now that it is as much my journey as well If for different reasons and I need to talk about it it is in my nature I can't bottle things up.

Tarkine,
I'd love to see the cat olympics,DH won't let me get a cat and I don't think it would be wise to bring a kitten in to our household at the moment Paige has just learnt how to hold on to Sheppy's tail and follow him around the house much to his disgust, the more I growl the more she does!! you Know the scenario!!!!a poor Kitten wouldn't cope neither would an adopted cat, it just wouldn't be fair.
unfortunately I had to can my plans for domestic godess tasks as Paige and I have had two visitors today but it was nice to have an excuse to sit and chat and drink tea and coffee (my monthly quota)
I don't normally drink either and I'll be on the toot all night now sorry TMI
I might do a bit of organising now DD has gone to bed heres to a better night than last night.

[Caramello]

Oh, I had the same thought. I write WAY too many revealing things! However, I like you believe that it is theraputic. Also, I think it is good to talk to others in similar situations for support.

I found a post by BB the other day worrying about revealing doctor names (in relation to legal action) and I thought smugly 'nope, never done that.' Then I did a google search and found out that I HAD!! Luckily I'd said nice things, but I thought I'd been more careful than that! Then again it was a direct question about my clinic - and I spelt the doctor's name incorrectly anyway!

So, it's really eay to talk about things that you thought you wouldn't! And I'm like you Blizz, I don't really believe in bottling things up, which is probably why I'm finding it hard to deal with people at work. They know something is up but not what.

[blizz]

I know that feeling with work, I just haven't managed to find a way to block them out effectively I know they mean well but I really don't need extra pressure in the TWW let alone being able to have the ablility to tell people about a PG in my own good time most people can wait till the twelve week mark, I just keep getting "so are you?" then I am faced with giving up my private moment or bold faced lying and I can not lie I just don't feel comfortable.
It would have been great if I had stayed PG in Nov as all of the testing and results were done on a long weekend so I could come back to work and no-body was any the wiser but alas it wasn't to be

[blizz]

I was thinking I would love to stay and chat a while but my eyes have gone all fuzzy so I guess that's my cue to try and get back some of the sleep I missed last night, chat to you soon Gargy, sleep well.