Donor Conception General Chatter #5

[Malyna]

everything crossed for you Blizz!

[blizz]

well ladies,
I'm officially in the limbo of TWW, one snowbub on board and three remaining (yay they only needed to defrost one) FS said it looks like a great embie, am absolutely exhausted got home about 3:00 and have just woken up after 2hr sleep (still feeling a bit dazed) about to go and pick up Paige and will be having tea at B&SIL's house so (double yay) I don't have to cook. Might be back a little later but I think I will have to go to bed early tonight or work tomorrow is going to kill me luv to you all

[Malyna]

Normally I would wish you all the very best blizz, but my track record is always to barrack for the opposite team, so I'll just send you loads of positive sticky thoughts!!

[Caramello]

Brillant news Blizz - hope everything goes well in the TWW!

[blizz]

thanks girls,
I'm not letting myself get to worked up this time it's too hard (even if I have a BFP this time I'm not going to let myself get excited or attatched until I see a good strong heartbeat and get a fair way in to the first trimester) I'm probably still a little raw after M/C and D&C in Nov.
how are you both travelling, are you starting to settle back in to work Gargy?
how is your decision making going Tarkine?
I probably won't be around to late tonight kept feeling like I was going to fall asleep at work today I was so tired (took my three goes to get out of bed when the alarm went off this morning LOL!!!)

[Malyna]

still spinning my wheels.. I think we will stick with the one we decided and see how things go.. I'm surprised by the number of people who ask "so how is IVF going" in the same manner that you would ask "how your new house is going or how is your hubby/cat/dog/horse is"... Yeah great conversation... so I tend to go into all the details and give them the works.. maybe they will learn about asking questions and receiving TMI!

[blizz]

Hee,hee,hee Tarkine that theory works well doesn't it, I'm a bit of a blabbermouth about IVF much to DH's disgust I think he prefers to keep it private which I can respect, I need to talk things through which is why i am so glad I found you wonderful ladies as you fulfill the need I have to talk about everything as well as respecting DH's need for privacy

[Caramello]

I go by the theory that if they are asking the question then they want to know the full details. Some people get so freaked out that you can see the whites of their eyes and they never ask again! However a lot of people do genuinely want to know and I don't mind educating them.

Re work - been a bit of a bust actually as I haven't been in. I got a massive headache Monday afternoon and the virus associated with it has been visiting various sections of my body - at the moment in my throat and chest. Just had a big tanty about it in my blog!

I really thought I would have a much healthier year this year...going to the Drs at 10.15 to see what the problem is (oh and to get a Drs certificate). Can predict the outcome - you have a virus, no point giving you antibiotics, rest and drink lots of fluids.

Thought for 5 seconds about resigning - but I think this is a reaction to the failed IUI rather than stressful work conditions. I hope so anyway...

Can't I just have a magic wand that makes this go away???

[blizz]

oh honey, hope you're feeling better soon, I've got a head cold at the moment one of the rewards of doing the job I do!!!! you know, wiping snotty noses all the time, Paige's snotty nose progressed in to her chest this morning so I guess that is where mine will head next.

[Caramello]

Yes I was rather amused when the Dr said 'you do get these regularly, but the last time was in November.' Yes, the last time that I was at work. I was also ill in December but these were one off days. Nothing happened over Jan/Feb because I wasn't at work.

However I think this one has come from some charming person in DH's office, as he had it first.

BTW, exactly as I expected - throat infection.

Feeling better after my frustrated outburst this morning - had a bit of a reality check and realised that these last couple of months have not been peaceful and calm, so why should I not expect this reaction physically?

Still gets frustrating though!

How you going Blizz and Tarkine (and everyone else??)

[Malyna]

I'm well... realized it was Thursday today and I've survived 4 days back at work without going insane!

Happy Valentine's day!!

[blizz]

I'm exhausted,
doesn't matter how much sleep since Tuesday I get I can't seem to stop feeling tired (need to eat more Vegies I think).

We don't really do Valentines day now as our anniversary is on the 9th of March but happy Valentines day to you girls too!!!

Carmel I think your're right about the stress thing heck!!......It's not like you've been under any!!!!.....nothing much at at all!!!!...NOT....LOL!!!!

no wonder your body's having a moment after all you've been through.

The one aspect of childcare I hate is...the bugs... I've got glands the size of apricots in my neck because of how hard they have had to work over the years to filter out all of the nasties that my little charges share with me (especially when their darling parents bring them to school and say Oh they've been sick last night...What the ###@ thats another vent for another occaision)
other than that I'm fine.

DH gets home hopefully tonight so I might dissappear for a little while,
he mentioned last time he was feeling a little neglected,
that's the hard thing I guess, he gets back off shift and often I'm in the middle of a work week and totally exhausted not even taking in to account being single mum to Paige for 5 days and nights and he wonders why I don't jump all over him when he gets home.....I love him to death but the thing is getting me down a bit at present

[Caramello]

Hey Tarkine,

Glad everythings going ok!

Hey Blizz!

Aww, poor DH! Give him heaps of lovin', we'll hear from you whenever! (though completely understand about feeling exhausted).

As for me, thinking seriously about whether to delay the IVF for a while (ie to later in the year). Seeing the specialist on Monday - but want to know what the pros and cons are of going now as opposed to later. Thinking later may let me have a stable life for awhile, but not sure if delaying at my age is an option. Anyway, have talked it over with DH and will again decide with FS on Monday.

[blizz]

good luck on the decision making, since I started on the IVF rollercoaster I don't believe I'm able to stop myself at the moment,with every failure I think my coping mechanism is to take control and ring up and start a new procedure(I just can't help myself) But I do understand that stress is a marvellous thing for reaking havoc on our bodies and maybe a take stock moment may be what you need we'll be here to support you with what ever you decide to do, we're in it for the long haul now...can't get rid of us.
Try and relax a little over the weekend I've decided that that is what I'm going to do, ohhh tea's arrived, talk later

[Malyna]

[Caramello]

Funny how you don't pick up the signals when you are so self involved...

B2 rang me about 2 weeks ago - I thought he was checking up on me to see how we were going, which he kinda was, because he was trying to find out the best time to tell me that...

He and his wife are having a baby!! They did the ultrasound today and his wife is about 12 weeks along!

Brilliant news for them - I am happy!

But a little sad for us.

However, I am starting to think a little differently about IVF again, that maybe I should just bite the bullet and move on.

I'm SO confused about what I want to do. And I've told DH this too.

I'll have a talk to the FS on Monday and see what we want to do...

[blizz]

oh honey, that's hard isn't it!!! you want the best for them (heck we wouldn't wish this on our worst enemies) but it still hard to stop the "it's not fair" or the "why can't it be me"'s
Talking to your FS is probably for the best they can often put things in to perspective too.
If you want to talk about the IVF process itself I will do my best to tell you what I can remember from when I went through it.
My eggs were harvested and then given the icsi treatment (the clinic did this free of charge due to having used unproven sperm in IUI for nearly 12mths) I would probably pay for icsi again if I could as I had a really good fertilization rate with it.
I have read through a lot of posts from girls who seem to have grasped the technical side of things a little better(Oh all right then a WHOLE LOT BETTER..LOL) than me, I'm sure your FS will be able to give you some guidance and hopefully some answers and direction, I'll be thinking of you

[Caramello]

Hey Blizz,

What's happening with you at the moment?

(oh besides being gastro girl - had a chuckle when I read this in your blog!! Glad you're up and running with that too BTW!!)