Wow the replies from everyone have been amazing, really made me think and question things and have helped me to get back on track so to speak

i agree in that we need to figure out what makes us happy'(and continue to do those things) and i think when i do these things im closer to who i am if that makes sense.lol

i think we need to remind ourselves of the things in life that we do have and what we have acheived no matter how small and give ourselves credit for what we have gone through and be gratefull for the person we are and continue to be..