Sometimes I step outside myself and think I've turned into that cranky old lady. You know the one that screams at kids to get off the lawn.

I've had a pretty rough couple of years. And things are good now, but that doesn't stop the pain that certain events caused. KWIM?

I find since those said events I've become pretty closed off, pretty jaded, pretty suspicious and pretty recluse. I often wonder if people talk about me in the view of "old me vs new me" yanno like they do in the movies with that crazy old bitter woman that everyone says "She wasn't always like this you know..." To the story's newcomer.

The thing is I don't know how to fix it, or of I should. I don't want to be seen differently than 2 years ago. Deep down I know I'm the same person or my friends wouldn't still be there for me. It's like I've become impatient not only with people but life also.

WWYD? How can I know if I've changed? And what if it's just experience. And what if everyone goes through this and I'm over analysing?