You guys rock. And to think I was worried about sharing :/ but I think that's it you know. I'm so scared of sharing my thoughts and feelings be it online or IRL. Anyone who knows me via FB can see the difference. I've gone from sharing and engaging to superficial food porn shares and the occasional pic of my kids for family.

I know I've hidden a lot of how I feel/felt about some things because I don't want anyone to feel like I'm taking ownership of the situation because I know I wasn't the only one touched by it. Weird I know. But in doing that I wonder if I've shut some other door in my head. I also think with regards to online sharing I've gone from being safe and free to feeling protective and cautious. And this could be due to experiences or maybe it's just the progression of how it feels now online to what it used to feel like. I don't know.

I miss feeling open and free. But I know that did lead to feeling overwhelmed with expectations. And the constant of people around me telling me I'm too nice and allow people to hurt me has probably cause some damage too (and that was only said well meaningly).

I think I need to find something for me, embrace the changes and try and work at finding the happy medium between the two. Maybe I'll feel more comfortable then. Right now I feel in limbo a lot of the time.

Thanks jellyfish. I know exactly what you mean about disillusioned. I also feel like I don't have the time to give to some situations.