Yes I understand you. I work in an area that involves welfare and I see people who have been dealt some really hard hands and struggle with day to day needs, but still have a smile on their face and are grateful for the small things they do have.

I find it hard as I feel guilty for wanting renovations done urgently to my home, now my house is old, in many rooms very rundown e.g thredbare carpet (I live in a farm house old and like many farmers no money put into it) but all in all the house is spacious, clean and functional and we can live our lives well. I feel bad when I know that in comparison some people live with far less, but then I think I work hard, and I too deserve what I consider to be necessary for me to feel fullfilled.

I guess it is the say, why do bad things happen to good people, know one will ever know the reasons they face the challenges that are put before them.

I think I am now rambling, but would love to see others perspectives on your thoughts