I'm very worried of turning out like my mother, I really don't want my childhood for my kids.

I try very hard to do things differently to her, just so I'm not like her in any way even to the point of staying in my marriage for the sake of not being a single parent like her. Luckily staying in my marriage has been a good thing and things are finally better than they have ever been.

I really wanted to be a nurse but again, she's a nurse so I can't bring myself to do it. I don't want to be compared to her in any way.