Just Me- No dont feel like you have to hold back, these issues are happening and there happening now, you cant help that these all come to head at once, and as for your other threads, i can only say, you are a wonderful, inspirational and a very comapssionate woman. Regardless what has happened to you in life, you have taken it in and used it as a tool to create new paths for you and your family, to ensure your children arent exposed to this sort of issue..

The flying butter- Hun, No matter what it is that you have medically, it is no excuse for any parent nor adult to emotionally, physically, sexually abuse a child, no matter what circumstances are in place. A child is a child of innocense, a object that is frail and also extremely impressionalable and very naive and volatile.
It sounds like your mother did abuse you emotionally and at her own satisfaction. You never did anything to warrant any sort of emotional abuse and that to me is a violation of innocense no matter how severe.

Strawberry Fields- Yes, she is!! Lol. My mum is a multi-manipulator. She is perfect around stranegers but doesnt take her long to show her true colours and even then she will have any excuse to cover it up and they fall back in love with her again. She has suffered health wise, cancer and stuff, but i always supported her in any way possible, But her motto is "karma is a b***h" inwhich means, we did nothing for her so wait until your in this situation.
Also on the topic of mental illness due to these poeple lol.
I suffere from Bipolar Disorder. This was discovered around 18 months ago now. I have an extremely compulsive but also aggressive side that wil come from unwarranted but also am very volatile to certain situations.
I also suffer from Deep anxitey also, I have anxiety attacks when i start feeling threatened, or if i get certain vibes from people i dont trust, very weird i know lol
I suffer from Depression also which can kick in at the best of times which i hate because i go into a complete dazed and zombie like state. which effects my ability to parent. so that has to be closly monitored.
I am on meds for my Bipolar but thats all i will take right now, the bipolar tablets are very strong and carry alot of lithium in it which makes me ill alot.
Also think that i can show NPD signs but i think they are just mimic's from my mother itms?
I never ever put my kids down nor talk myself up and etc