Snacks, thank you for your words of encouragement. To be honest, DH and I were planning to have 3 kids... but at the moment, I feel like 2 is over my head already! These past few days, I feel particularly down and just burst out in tears when I look at what has DD1 turned into. At this point, I don't regret DD2's arrival, but I just feel terribly guilty of making DD1 turning out this way. She's become a monster... maybe part of the reason is due to teething, but she certainly has become a lot more clingy and just very hard to settle. She loves her sister as she would kiss her many times during the day. But then, some times, she would try to grab her legs or arms and just be harsh on her. That's when I become frightful and disappointed. What happened to the DD that was so nice and easy going?

Last night, she woke up in the middle from her sleep and started to cry like there's no tomorrow. So, I pad her and picked her up for some cuddling. 10 minutes later, she fell asleep so I attempted to put her back down on her bed then she burst out in tears again. Only this time, it took me an hour and a half to settle her and put her back down. She was never this way before... always very easy to settle back when she wakes up from a bad dream during her sleep. But her sister is not around, so what happened there?

I know that being a mom is not an easy task, but I have never thought it would be that difficult especially when dealing with 2 kids. Now, to think of having a third makes me scared of what will become of the 2 DDs when number 3 comes... I think it will drive me up the walls if I have to care for 3 clingy "babies".

I admire moms who have many children all very close to age as I don't understand how they could manage it... at the same time, I feel like this has become my biggest failure in life as I am unable to deal with this situation. I feel just incompetent.