Thank you ladies for all your kind words and encouragements. I don't feel so alone now. For some reason, today has just been one of those days when I could really use some time off. I kept asking myself what have I done to DD1. I think I have used up a box of kleenex just from all my crying spells.

Honestly, I don't mind being tired and overworked. I think the only thing bothering me is just feeling so saddened by the fact that DD1 has become so upset with the changes in her world. Her world was so rosy before DD2's arrival; she was just one happy kid. Since DD2's arrival, I can sense that DD1's resentment. The way she looks at me makes me cry... (she would stare and me wondering how come mommy is spending time with my little sister and not me... and when I would go to her as soon as I'm done feeding DD2, she walks away from me) That breaks my heart!

I get DD1 involved when changing DD2's nappy... I would send her to get me a clean nappy or clothes. But I find that she some times deliberately is harsh to her sister or trying to pull on her feet. Initially, I should tell DD1 to be "gentle", but it doesn't seem like she gets the message. So, when she does it repeatedly after I repeatedly tell her not to be harsh on DD2, I would give a little tap on her hand. Then she would walk away or just sit on the floor and make a fuss. Am I wrong for doing that?

While I am happy to acknowledge through all of your experiences that this hard time will pass, I have to admit that I am scared to think about what will happen to DD2 when she grows up... will she retaliate? Of course, at this point, she's too young to do so... but will she resent her older sister for bullying her or being mean to her?