I lost my dad when I was 13 and my mum to cancer 2 years ago. As for how I cope I think it was best described by Tom Hanks' character is Sleepless in Seattle: "Well, I'm gonna get out of bed every morning... breathe in and out all day long. Then, after a while I won't have to remind myself to get out of bed every morning and breathe in and out..."

Great big hugs to you Kylz. There's no right or wrong way to feel. Whatever you feel in any moment is what you need to for that moment.