mummasue, I shudder and feel a little panicky still when I see a heavily pregnant woman or someone with a tiny baby.

gigi, I am divorced as of tomorrow from a toxic relationship, I dont think I will ever look for another man, I am open to one if i happen to stumble across one, but the thought of being single forever sits very well with me, that mixed with my infertility = 0.001% chance of me having more babies. I feel guilty occasionally that DS wotn have siblings, but there are plenty of worse things on life.

I work at a childcare centre in the nursery, I love it and get all my baby cuddles and cluckiness out, then I come home to a quiet home with my only Perfect balance