what a good thread,
i blame a fair bit of my lack of self esteem towards my family. in the early years of my life i was put down alot, they say it was just normal teasing, but i was the only one who copped it and i felt like the odd one out. i am the youngest of three sisters with a younger brother and i always felt left out, i often ask them if i started out being weird first, or if i became weird because i felt left out. no one can answer that for me and i was too young to remember, i just know how i feel now.
i can appear to have lots of confidence, but i am basically a neurotic freak who then analysis everything later.
like now.. having second thoughts about this post.......