FF Frowns

[LadyRaven]

I went to the dr yesterday for stomach pain. I never been told off so severely in my life. I was told I was going to have an obese asthmatic baby because he's FF and that when I came back with an obese asthmatic that needed constant hosp care she'd say "I told you so" and not to be suprised when it did happen because it WOULD and I would hate myself for the rest of my life and get PND and hurt my baby and everyone around me! I cried and cried and cried.

I told my community nurse she's going to her boss with it to put in a complaint about it. The dr sent me crying to the hospital with bubs to give it another go and said if I didn't try then I didn't care. We got bubs on ok and it wasn't as completely agonising but still really painful, now I don't know if I should try and relactate or not because even after he was on each boob for over 30minutes he still wanted 120mls of FF. I was just starting to accept FF and now I'm a wreak I really hate myself right now...