Have you been well supported in your BF journey? DH, family, friends a lactation consultant?

Support is a big part of successful breastfeeding. Also it can take many weeks to settle in to it and everyone is different. If you have been following the advice of books etc and trying feed to a set schedule it might be not the right thing for you.

Its hard to know exactly what you have been through with out knowing more detail. All I can say is that BF is possible and even one BF a day is still really beneficial for your babe. Im happy to chat/write more if you want to PM me. As for guilt it does fade in time but if I can help in anyway to help you find a way Im happy too

Sending much love and support your way.