Darl, perhaps think of it this way. The best piece of advice an ABA counsellor gave me in the early days was, "BFing is not the be all and end all ... the most important thing is the bond between you and your baby."

For me, BFing was difficult and I was placing a heap of pressure on myself to continue and I would dread, really dread, each feed. That was not good for the bond between me and DD.

If you feel the bond would be threatened by you BFing because it raises complex issues for you, then I think that's a very good reason to FF.

BUT as you've indicated, you don't have to decide now. You've done really great in seeking out information but see how you feel when the time comes.