I was so ready to BF and had great plans to make sure I did it as good as I could and as long as I could.

Then DS was born with a cleft palate and it wasn't possible to get him to attach. I did try 3 times, but it was a horrible experience for the both of us, so I stopped trying. I don't regret that as it was very traumatic for both of us.

I expressed for 3 months (partly with FF as well) which was as long as my body could do it without medications which I wasn't convinced didn't increase my already high risk of breast cancer.

So there's another reason for FF.. thanks Maz for making me feel less of a freak!