I'm one to always give something a go, but not to blame myself when / if it doesn't work.

My first son, I was induced and after no progress in over 10 hours (still at negative 2) I was rushed off for an emergency c-section. My milk didn't come in, I ended up with mastitis twice after I got home from my c-section, first I was in hospital for 3 days with a male nurse on an old persons ward with a communal bathroom, I didn't feel safe there at all, having to leave my baby to go to the bathroom to shower (I'd hold off till I had visitors), when asking for help with feeding I had a male who really didn't know what he was doing try to show me. I still tried, we were topping up with FF after using whatever I could express. Was home for a few days then back to hospital for a day while I was on a drip and antibiotics via IV then onto oral medication so I could go home. My DP wasn't supportive (because he was going to work next day) the night I broke down... two weeks after my c-section, 11 o'clock at night I put my son on our bed (while DP dozed) and said I was going to get formula.

My second son (new partner, now DH) my waters broke and I was again taken to get my c-section (only two days before my scheduled surgery) I believe my milk came in a few days later and when I got home I was expressing to release the build up... I was stupid I threw out this EBM as I was more than capable in feeding him directly... however I ended up in hospital with an infection in my c-section scar... this got extremely bad... I was on extreme drugs... had two additional surgeries... my milk dried up over the course of my additional 3 week stay and he was switched to FFs, I don't remember alot of my hospital stay so I please that he wasn't passed on the drugs I was given.

This time I am planning on breast feeding again... however I will take what comes... I am in the process of trying to gain as much information as possible to gear myself up for the right start...