SIZE="6"][COLOR="Purple"]Hi, my name is B.J and I am TTC my first child on my own with a donor! I have never found the right partner, male or female, and since I have never been with a man at age 38 (true!) with a few bad experiences in life (both female and male bashings/rapes), I'm finally ready and Im running out of time, (Therapy takes a lot of your life up indeed!) so now I have my Donor.
I will meet him on 28/4, due to Ov on the 1st May. I am trying to concieve a girl, so there is no point inseminating on Ov day, or it will more than likely be a boy!
I don't want to sound sex bias, but I will be bringing up baby alone, and girls seem to gel better with their single mums.
I am scared, nervous, and fully aware of this huge life changing decision I have made, to bring a 'mini me' into the world and speaking in my artist's voice 'mould and sculpt' a beautiful, confident, well adjusted human being! Well TRY anyhow!
I don't know if it's wrong to want a child to mend a broken heart or if that idea would only cause one, in the grief that my life wasn't what I wished it to be, Uni degrees and all later, but you can have a go or die trying thats what I say! And there is already enough pre jugement in the world as we know in the Rainbow world' of Licorish all sorts, without having to justify the want of a child!
I was a bit confussed about the proceedure, I wrote to Rainbow babies and they didn't know the answer, but I've been told to 'put it (the sperm) in ASAP' as light, air and cool temp kills it off fast!
I am still a little upset that my Psych forced me to tell my GP sooner than i was ready, but its all out there now we know what we're up against, and what we have to do ...........
So, I take a HUGE gulp of breath and cross everything I can and hope it works. I think my donor is excited too, this is his first private donation outside the IVF clinic. Then the trick is to keep it there with my Diabetes the way it is![/SIZE][/SIZE]






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We have to wait for 2 weeks to take a pregnancy test. I will have to be optimistic and hope for the best!

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