Thank you so much Marydean. Yes, I love Eckhart Tolle. I have both the books you mentioned. I haven't yet read A New Earth. I totally agree with the importance of mindfulness. I often think about some of the things I read in The Power of Now, to try and focus on the present, and not catastrophise the future.Unfortunately, I often dwell in the past too. I know I could learn a lot more from Eckhardt. Sometimes I ask myself, 'what is required of me in this moment?' to try and ground myself to the present. I think I live in my head a lot. My DH is a buddhist. I know I could learn a lot from him. He meditates every day without fail.

I had actually bookmarked the tutorials that you are talking about, but I never got back to them. Actually, Eckhardt was doing a series of talks in Aus recently, but it was only weeks after my DS2 was born so I wasn't able to attend. I think I will read The Power of Now again, and then start on the other one.

I also like what you said about finding foregiveness for my body. I need to stop focusing on finding an answer to why this may have happened and move on. Otherwise I will be stuck in the past. Thanks you so much for directing me back to mindfulness. I can see that it has given you strength and I wish you all the best on your journey.