Thanks so much girls. Had my scan this morning. It all went well. I felt a little funny soon after the injection (kinda light headed, the text in the mag I was reading went a bit funny) but that passed after a few minutes. I had to lie on this scanning bed for about 15 minutes with this large flat camera thing centimeters from my face. But I just relaxed and listened to my heart beating. Now that I am officially aware of this condition i am more aware of my body, especially heart rate. I always have that pounding feeling that I used to only get after a brisk walk. I've decided that I do need one type of medication and that's the Beta blockers which slow down the heart rate and stop the shakes (they don't have many side effects and you can take them while BFing). I'm not keen on taking the anti-thyroid tablets though. They have many side effects, including nausea. I get nausea very easily and i'm sure that I will if I take them. The thought of throwing up for 6 months (the doctor said this is how long it usually takes) is dreadful. So what I've almost decided to do instead is take some natural thyroid "soothers". I've ordered some online and they should be here in about a week. Mum, a nurse, reckons they will work so might as well give them a shot. If I take the Beta blockers in the meantime then that takes away the life threatening aspect of my condition. I spoke to a Endocrinologist after my scan and he said that there are no nodules, just an all over inflammation as my auto immunity is attacking my thyroid. It's called Grave's Disease. It has a good prognosis. At least I know it's not a cancerous tumour on a nodule which was a possibility. So in the end I'm glad I did the scan.... I have peace of mind. I don't feel radio-active but I am for another 19 hours. I can BF my boy again 24 hours after the scan... personally i don't think there is much risk. Babies have x-rays and that involves more radiation than in my injection. The doctor said that if I express the milk today I can give it to him tomorrow because the radio-activity would have totally dissipated... but I won't... I'll chuck it and get him used to the formula that I have bought. I think, despite not really wanting to, that it is time to wean. I'll do it slowly... giving him his last feed no later than Dec. 31. I really think that the demands placed on my body from breastfeeding and taking care of 3 children has resulted in me getting run down to the point of disease. I'm sure that a month after weaning (I'll request another blood test) that it will show improvements. But it's very sad for me. I was really hoping to get to 2 years. Funny these little milestones we strive for hey?

Gotta drink lots of water to flush this stuff out of my body!