Bath - so glad to hear the test went well and no cancer. That must be the biggest weight off your shoulders. The compromise you have made sounds really good, take the medicine you feel you really do need and try a natural remedy for the other symptoms. Regarding the b/f, I would try to look at the positive side - what a great effort feeding for this long. You should feel very proud of yourself and I hope that makes you feel less sad about it. Your health is important. Take care of yourself and hope the holidays bring you some nice, quiet, relaxing times