sometimes i feel like i descend into a bad mood where i become psycho mummy, where i am irritable, irrational and dark. It can happen when DS is just too demanding and i run out of patience. the transformation begins: dark clouds gather above, steam shoots out of my ears, my eyes turn red and burn holes in everything i see. I dont get violent, but i feel really nasty and mean in my thoughts. Like i want to yell shut up, i want to shut the door on the crying and although i might succeed in putting DS in a situation where he happy ( so the triggering behaviour stops), i am left feeling resentful and ****ed off. It totally ruins my day.

for a while i was on anti depressants which really helped. they meant i could cope with the usual challenges of a toddler's wingeing and constant demands with good humour and imagination. I may have been in this horrible mood because of liver or thyroid problems, or maybe not, perhaps it's just normal. anyway i went off the anti-depressants when i felt better and passed the incredibly nauseas stage of early pregnancy. but now, sometimes the evil me re-emerges. Does anyone have a solution to change that mood when it happens (or before)? something involving caffeine or music or mental cues?