Homebirth General Discussion #21

[kellbell]

Wow that birth story was amazing!

[Tegam]

Oh Jen! Still so raw isn't it…. not that it shouldn't be, you can just hear it in your post! whats the magic about 2cms and yes why isn't it worth a try to birth vaginally! have you seen how quickly those sonographers click away when they are measuring things…. one little click and bam you are too this or too that! or not enough…...

[kellbell]

How do I let go of Home birthing . It's like I got a taste of what could be and now it's been snatched away
I saw the midwives have a new pool and all I could think is it won't be me getting to use it
Does it ever get better or will I be 80 and still have regrets

[Tegam]

Kellbell has anyone say no to you yet?

[kellbell]

No my midwife hasnt rules it out yet but I'd probably have to free birth it with my doula . I don't know if I can risk it with other children who need me
And I'm a good 30 + mins from a hospital . If only I had a crystal ball to see the future!
I got a letter for a surgical appointment in the mail today I just wanted to tear it up!

[Tegam]

I'm not sure how you handle things so I can only talk for myself. I'd need to be positive at this time. I'd say to myself that the OB was relaxed and the IM hasn't said no. No need to worry about free birth/ surgery yet. You are only 33 weeks, plenty of time for a million things to change. If we all focused on everything that could stop us then we'd probably all just book in for an elective CS..... I don't want to come across at all insensitive. I just also don't want you spiralling down into the perfect position to just "do as you are told". The games not over yet....

[kellbell]

Plenty of fight in me left! Got to get bubs out of transverse as my midwife explained the uterus is stretching the wrong way
Off to do my spinning babies exercizes!

[Cassius2]

my mates baby was transverse right up until 39 weeks and now is happily head down and they are back to their plans of vaginal birth there is plenty of time! spinning babies is awesome for inspiration!

can you request to have scans done weekly or whatever for the placenta? I am sure that there could be positive changes! maybe if bubs moves from transverse it might positively impact on the positioning of placenta to the cervix?? maybe??

[HotI]

My two hb babies changed positions late. DD2 was head down from 38? weeks, but at 41 weeks +3 days turned transverse for a couple of hours before turning head down again and then labour started.

thinking good thoughts for you kellbell.

[kellbell]

Eeeeeeekkkkkkkk think my private midwife just ditched me !
Can't ring her as at work but she sent a message sounding like she was transferring care back to the hospital


I have another scan in 2 weeks at 35 weeks to check the placenta

[Lady-bug]

Oh Kellbell sorry to hear of this, she won't wait til you've had another scan to make a decision?

[kellbell]

Phew she just wanted to send them some blood tests from 28 weeks
All good
Going to have a planning meeting with her & my doula and hubby
After the next scan .
I didn't think she would cut me of like that - was just freaked out for abit !!

[Cassius2]

Phew she just wanted to send them some blood tests from 28 weeks
All good
Going to have a planning meeting with her & my doula and hubby
After the next scan .
I didn't think she would cut me of like that - was just freaked out for abit !!

you are under an incredibly stressful situation right now, so it is totally understandable that you are on edge and very very nervous. I think, now, more than ever you need to surround yourself with lots of love, light and positivity. this is where i would of disappeared for an hour or so in my room with my calmbirth CDs for some time out and reassurance...do you have a 'safe place' you can take yourself for a little bit (like with meditation or zone out)??

i am sending so much love and positivity to you xx this baby has plenty of time to turn!

[kellbell]

Thanks so much
I can't live like this for 6 weeks so am going to take some time and listen to my music and try and calm down . This was supposed to be such a peaceful time connecting with the baby , getting birth space ready ect. I need to get my head back into that nice calm space I was in
I have been journaling and getting it all out .
Have a meeting with birth talk coming up to try and heal some damage from my last birth
Hopefully they will have some strategies for me to help with this birth as well
I'm am so so terrified of birthing in hospital again
And being separated from my baby so have alot to work though :-(

[Tegam]

Oh kellbell hugs




Afm. Why at the end of pregnancy when you are preparing to bring another little human into your family do you feel so tired and unable to deal with the ones you have. Such negative guilty feelings over those that you already have and are letting down being so tired and uncomfy. Seems unfair. I know I'm doing my best and after a very hard shift last night I've decided to start maternity leave YAY. So that should help but boy, wish I just had the energy to be fun and happy mummy again. Not this ranting emotional mole. All four kids are currently in their rooms as am
I. As they are just being nasty to each other, they probably just need food and a happy mummy but this option was easier! Mother of the year here

[Eenee]

I must be nearing end of pregnancy too then

[~phyrephly~]

Me three hope we can all take it easy soon x

[Ozstar]

Sending you all some love. I hope that each of you can find some time to tune out the world, even if only for a short while.