Bella and all of you other Mums who have similar birth stories. It is YOUR stories that have given me the courage (and warning) to reject a hospital birth for my VBAC. Not to mention the hospital's poor record.

I didn't have a traumatic c/s/birth because my c/s was 'elective' due to the placenta being right beside the cervix. But I hear your stories and they provide the inspiration I need to make my birth the best it can be by my decision.

I finally found at least one m/w yesterday who is available, although she has another lady due 2 Jan and is 45 mins away from me. This is a hassle sine I would go to her for my initial visits. The other m/w that will be on hols rang me suggested they would have someone closer possibly, but I'll have to check back in a week or so. Fx I'm getting closer to finding someone!

I also rang my ob's office as I promised DP, JIC the early scans show an issue, but I'm absolutely sure after talking with the receptionist that the HB is the right option! She moved my EDD forward a day to 31 Dec so I would fit in. Doesn't sound like much, but going by O my EDD is probably 3 Jan. She also talked about a repeat c/s at 38 wks which I will not have even if I need one (DD was at 39 wks and I would insist on 40 if it's necessary). Eeek! So I'm wondering if even just the couple of visits I'll be having are really a good idea at all. The thing is, my appt is at 13 wks so I wonder if I could get the 12 wk scan done thru my GP and go to her for the results. I might check. As long as it's good I can just cancel the ob.