hotI: find your inner hippy and hold on tight! find the support, demand the support and do not compromise yourself or you wishes again! the medical system is just to hard to fight and sadly i dont believe any one of us can change it. i had two hospital births cause i didnt know better, OB suggested homebirth for my third so with her support had a lovely mw and homebirth, interstate and baby number 4 i feel back into the medical system and even though i knew better i just didnt priorities myself or my needs/wishes. i had a vaginal birth, nothing like the joyful experience i had at home with DS. if i ever have another then it WILL be born at home.
HotI: i too booked into birth centres with this last pg. my PTSD though really disagreed lol! i found the environment and all the rules a massive frikkin trigger and just kept having panic attacks. it wasnt until i actually had an IM in my dining room chowing down on choccy biccies with me, DH and DD that i realised that i wasnt a freak, but just needed to take a different route to bringing my baby earthside. it was instant how 'right' a fit having a HB was. it is the most miraculously, awesome and yet, normal thing to do ITMS. you will never regret a decision to go down the path of a planned HB that's for sure.
so i guess the gist of my story is get calling! call a whole bunch of IMs! and pick the one that really gels with you. you will know when it happens it is instant! i turned down 2 before i found Nic
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