HotI: i too booked into birth centres with this last pg. my PTSD though really disagreed lol! i found the environment and all the rules a massive frikkin trigger and just kept having panic attacks. it wasnt until i actually had an IM in my dining room chowing down on choccy biccies with me, DH and DD that i realised that i wasnt a freak, but just needed to take a different route to bringing my baby earthside. it was instant how 'right' a fit having a HB was. it is the most miraculously, awesome and yet, normal thing to do ITMS. you will never regret a decision to go down the path of a planned HB that's for sure.

so i guess the gist of my story is get calling! call a whole bunch of IMs! and pick the one that really gels with you. you will know when it happens it is instant! i turned down 2 before i found Nic