is it weird that now that i have had an awesome HB that i now am even more concerned about transfer?? i was thinking last night that when i was pg with DD2 that i was more willing to consider transfer as 'one of those necessary things if the time arises', but now, now that i had such a beautiful experience, the thought that this time could end up in hospital is just scary?

AFM: found a HB midwifery group here in LA that will take us (even without...insurance!). loads of money but not as medical as the place we went this morning (checked out a couple of places...no sign of the PTSD...yet!).