Don't worry Dee, you are definitely not alone! I demand feed Matthew his breastfeeds. The hardest thing is when you have someone else look after him for a period of time, like my MIL in my case and I tell her what I want but all I get is 'I'm experienced' and then proceeds to do what she wants which is very frustrating. She feeds Matthew by the clock but I just have to bite my tounge, she is after all doing us a favour and it isn't often.