Oh Meredith, huge hugs to you hon.... what a rollercoaster of emotions for you.

Firstly, congratulations on your much wanted BFP... what wonderful news!

As for the weaning, please do allow yourself to grieve - it's completely normal and okay and you don't have much help from your hormones at the moment with regards to feeling this way... not only have the hormones with breastfeeding changed but pregnancy also! You are bound to feel really emotional.

I found it hard with Elijah when we weaned, I experienced a huge feeling of loss especially since he was so upset about it, then he got sick and sought comfort from his father instead. But now, it's okay because he's back to his old tricks and loves lots of close cuddles and snuggles with me - just without boobs! So all was not lost, we have a very close bond and relationship and I know I will breastfeed again, so I am looking forward to that again.

Let the grieving out, have a cry etc and know that time will heal. You had a special bf relationship and soon you will give Logan the gift of something even more precious - a little brother or sister - something that will give him a lifetime of love and memories - just like your precious breastfeeding memories are to you.

*huge hugs*