Oh, I'm so sorry! Do you think you're getting a bit tense before the feeds because you're on your own? (I know you said you were looking forward to it, but maybe even on a subconscious level?) Do you think you and Cameron may be more relaxed in a warm bath, or lying down in bed? Is the LC helping to position Cameron, or is she letting you do it all yourself when she's there?
I'm sorry I don't have anything else to suggest... You're doing so well.