Hi

I am brand new to bellybelly and at the moment I am having a bit of a crisis! I am 21 years old (almost 22) and have just have my 3rd laparoscopy (day surgery involving lasering and cutting out of scarring in the uterus lining) in 3 years because I have endometriosis. I feel like I can't continue to go through the medical procedures knowing that the longer I leave it to have a baby, the less likely I will be to have one - I have hormones, homeopathy and obviously the surgical methods to get rid of my endometriosis but nothing has worked. I feel like my next step is to have a baby.

I have posted a thread on the endometriosis board asking for advice but I thought it would be worth putting on in here as well ... I guess what I am struggling with right now is that my partner is 23 and not willing to be a father. I am willing to go it alone if I need to and at the moment I feel like that is the choice I need and have to make. A concern I have is how hard it would be for me to be a single mum at 22 - financially I am responsible enough to know the baby and I would be fine. I am about to finish university and once I start working next year I beleive I will be able to financially save to bring a child into the world (I have already been living away from home for 5 years).

I'm just so confused and lost and I really need someone to talk to that knows what it's like to be in this situation so please, if you are reading this and you can relate, I would really appreciate anything you can say.