Thankyou so much ladies. Its great to see some familiar names again. Its been so long and yet it only seems like yesterday I was trying for DD!
You are all right in that you can't stop what your heart wants - I know I will just be so much more content in life if I could just get that last baby out of my system. Just wish it wasn't such an ordeal to achieve that seemingly small wish.
At this stage, I don't even really want to discuss a defnite "end" time because I'm worried about putting that extra "pressure" on any cycle.
We do have the funds but it means eating into savings and potentailly missing out on other family things (holidays etc) which I feel really guilty about. DH is being really wonderful in allowing me to attempt this dream. I know he would probably prefer to go away more etc.
Was meant to be having my pg blood test this morning at clinic but I just left a msg with my nurse to cancel it. I have been pg and not pg aneough times to know I'm defnitely not (HPT BFN and AF don't lie to me!!) - just really couldn't bear getting a call to hear that news again.
Plus, last cycle with our FET, I only had the test in order to go straight into a stim cycle and got the news of chem pg which was worse for me than BFN - brought up all the "what if's " and meant a delay in starting the next cycle until levels came down.
Anyway, I see the FS in 2 weeks so will try and formulate a plan by then - I already need a back up in my head if our one frostie doesn't make it.

Babydreamtime - lovely you hear from you and see you embarking on the same journey. I hope there is a no3 out there for us very soon BTW -My inbox cleared now!