Oh Kel, I just read your post and my heart just goes out to you. This Whole TTC journey puts a lot of strain on our relationships and from your signiture I can see that yours is a particularily difficult journey. Especially compared with my relatively easy run so far. Can I suggest talking with your clinic councellor it may help. In reagrds to taking a break. I took six months break last year after 4 back to back failed cycles. I thought at the time that I wouldn't go back that the pain wasn't worth it. But as time went by i realised that it really was what I wanted. Taking the break and the step back from the nightmare of BT and needles and scans made me realise that another child was worth all the sacrifices that we are making. I couldn't make this clear judgement while I was still cycling. Please dont fell that I am butting in as I am a stranger to you I was just reading and feeling you pain. please if there is anything I can do just PM me.