Went for my u/s this morning. Four days worth of injections and only 6 follies. Dr. said there were a few more little ones. Tomorrow, I am going for my blood test and start orgalutran. Monday another u/s.

6 ain't bad. I know I should be happy. I was hoping for a bigger number. Cried the whole way home. Even thinking to cancel cycle depending on Monday's news.

Dr. also said some women go up and down with their follicle numbers. And, some stay the same, possibly like me...my gonal f units are at 375, now 450 for the rest of the cycle. First time 225-330, same follicle numbers...regardless of increasing dosage.

Am I just being ridiculous?

It's so damn hard, I feel like no one understands.