Hi everyone

Holly & PP - I am so glad that you have found friendship with each other and that your appointments with Dr S seem to have placed some renewed hope in your lives. The more people working on this infert puzzle the better I say!

BG - Thank goodness you only have a few more days of the pill to go... hang in there hun - we are all here to support you!

Megan - Bon Jovi concert in Christchurch - wow that sounds amazing! I hope your body starts cooperating and you get your FET b/ts started while you are on leave. Wouldn't it be nice for things to happen when convenient for YOU, just once!

Shannon - Good luck with your FET - maybe having newborns around will be just what you need to encourage your own along! I have my fingers crossed for you!

Ann - thanks for popping in. I agree with BW and PP, the strength to stop IVF is beyond me at the moment. I was out with DF this morning and while he was away ordering coffee, I saw the sweetest little girl sitting at the next table and I just about burst into tears when she gave me a big smile. I had to quickly go back to reading my newspaper to try to cover up my tears. You are so brave to have moved forward. I only hope that I have your strength, if or when it comes that time for us. And a holiday Thailand sounds great - we are hoping to go there later in the year so would love to hear all about it when you get back!

Me, well I just don't know what is going on with my body. I have had the weirdest feelings over the last 10 days or so.... the sorests bbs ever and going from nausea to hunger to tiredness at different times of the day, sometimes all in one day (like yesterday) to just being tired and feeling blah - like today! I did a HPT this morning but it was BFN - to be expected I guess since I am only CD21 but I just couldn't help myself.... I have never felt like this before!

I saw my FS again on Friday morning - she is hoping to get approval to practice in NSW so that she can do EPUs, transfers etc at NGF in Sydney - in the mean time David will do them. I asked about whether it was worth having a lap done, and this time she agreed it might be a good idea (when I saw her last time she didn't think it was necessary). So I am off for a lap and hycosy (is that right? - more new abbreviations!) in 2 weeks time. At least we can do that locally and the hospital I am going to has the facility to do some good photos apparently to show me afterwards. My FS said that after 2 failed cycles, a lap is pretty standard just to make sure there isn't something there that has been missed. I know that lots of ladies have had these procedures done, but is there anything that I should know beforehand? Apparently it will be a 6 week delay between the lap and doing a flare - is that only if there is endo to burn off (I don't have any symptoms) or standard for all laps regardless?

To everyone else, I hope all is going well with you and that you are finding your own inner strengths to continue to move forward in this journey!
Cheryl xx