Doing ok here... coming to grips with our decision to not transfer this cycle. I'm finding that I probably could have coped psychologically, but physically I'm sure my body needs a rest. I'm also glad that I'm going with a letrozole cycle for the break this time - I know it makes things a bit longer than if I went with the pill, but at least I know there's no chance of me spotting continuously for two weeks - and when you add that to the two early miscarriages, stim cycle and OHSS... Well, I'm feeling like it's really no surprise at all that our last transfer didn't take too well!

to Dr S if you happen to read this! Unlike other FSs, I've never seen a bad thing said about him here, so I'm sure he'd be happy with what he sees. Last time I spoke about forums with an FS I got the "don't believe everything you read" lecture, along with the declaration that all the women on said forums are dreadfully unhappy, and I'd be better off removing myself from the negativity. He's obviously not seen BB! Sure, everyone has down days, but there's never an air of negativity here. Everyone seems happy and supportive and that's what gets us all through with a shred of sanity left.

Holly, I'm actually more surprised tht previous specialists you have seen haven't taken notes - all my specialists have, whether they be an FS, rheumy, neurologist, whatever. I'm glad that you have a plan to follow - life always seems much better with a plan.

Now that I think about it, I'm feeling a bit like a freak, knowing I'm going to disregard Dr S's prednisone instructions with the next transfer and go back to what we did before. But I'm sure BG will be the first to point out that I've never been normal! Some times you've just got to go with what feels right.

Chez, you know I've been seeing David for a year - he's done one EPU, three transfers and a D&C for me - and he's made me feel quite at ease with all procedures. We end up talking at transfer as theough we are both completely oblivious to the rather undignified position and the state of exposure of my bits... Can't help with the lap questions, I'm afraid. I'm actually quite terrified that David will start talking about sending me for one - it's really something I'd rather not do!

Hating the heat and humidity at the moment - I'm getting the worst letrozole hot flushes ever! Ovaries are sore and niggly at only day 10. I figure I'm either going to ovulate earlier again, or I'm in for a few eggs again this time! I'm hoping it's the earlier side of things - I'm not sure I could put up with this for a week!

BW