Well AF decided to sneak in unobtrusively last night when i was on my way to bed - woo hoo (well, so i thought) - no pain, just a bit of pink and then flow started. figured it was typical, seeing i'd gone and had a BT yesterday - always happens that way!

my woo hoo turned to a massive boo hoo at around half two this morning when i was in so much pain i needed panadeine just to make it manageable - rang DH in tears cos i couldn't sleep (he was working anyway) - and then felt bad cos i didn't want him stressing about me! i am still very very sore this morning - feel like i've had a size 12 boot stomped into my lower tum - but at least she is here, so i've started the HRT now - it's a step forward (sorry, cannot force myself to say it's a positive step at this point - far too ouchy!)

really want to stay home with my heat pack today and just hate the fact that i'm female but i'm going to take myself off to work (with a stash of panadeine) and just see how far i can go before it's "too much" - i'm sure i can get myself sent home if i mention "girlie problems" to a male supervisor - what do you think ??