Hello, I know there have been similar threads to this in the past, but I wanted to raise this issue again on the forum here, as I find myself in a challenging situation and would like to hear other's perspectives/advice....

To let you the context:
Many of you already know my history (and my signature shows it)...anyway, we are still on an enforced TTC break, so still in limbo- and it is hard for me to conceive, but also I am now always going to be at higher miscarriage risk for a few reasons (including high thyroid antibodies, which my endocrinologist is concerned about)... so I feel we are dealing with a few different challenges, as well as the losses we have already faced.
This time last year I was pregnant, so it's been a tough time of year for me.

Now, one of my friends has recently had a baby. Another has just had a successful IVF cycle. These were two friends I used to discuss fertility related things with a lot, as they have both had their own share of struggles.
Now however, while I honestly am glad for them and their success, and wish them well, I am finding it very hard to deal with, given the place I am still at. I feel sad, anxious, angry, jealous, left behind, and well, it just hurts to see their babies or hear about their pregnancy etc. It just feels too much for me to handle sometimes.
I find myself not wanting to socialise with them. Invitations to join them for things are coming in, and I dont want to go. Then I feel guilty and like I should go and maintain the friendship and be involved and supportive of their lives.
But at the same time I feel I need to protect myself and do what's right for me at the moment. I also feel like sometimes even they don't understand my situation fully, because right now I am not going through anything tangible (eg an actual IVF cycle)...yet I am constantly having blood tests still to check my thyroid, am anxiously waiting the next specialist appointment to find out what's next and when we can start trying...am nervous about when/if I will fall pregnant, and worried about another miscarriage and the risks they keep telling me. So all this hangs over my life at all times.
I am doing my very best to be active and involved in activities I enjoy, to share fun times with DH etc, to try and get joy out of life and be active in life, and be positive while we are in this limbo/situation. It still hangs over things though.

So I guess in short, what do you think is the best way for me to handle this situation with grace?
Thanks