Thanks Buggirl and mindhugs...I do agree with your point of view. I don't have much choice in my town, so I will keep going for a while, and if its too upsetting, give her up.

I am seeing her again today, so I will see how I go...I feel a bit less fragile this week, and perhaps I have braced myself more for her now!...

She will probably tell me 'no sexy time', but I have just ovulated and we DTD...and I plan on telling her (with extra courage after reading your responses!) that we do intend to keep trying for a baby, so she needs to work with me on that approach!