I'm so sorry to hear of your loss Scooby.
The TTC rollercoaster sure has it's downs, but keep in mind of the ups! I find acupuncture has helped me to refocus and relax me in the past.
Try and take this time now for you, so by next year you have the strength needed and the positivity to match.
Never loose sight of the big picture.
Wishing you the best of luck and baby dust in the new year!