Hi WB
big big hugs to you. You know i have had it both ways my son was concieved first go and the second, well i am almost 3 years into trying and now doing IVF. You really do take it for granted and its a big slap in the face when it just wont happen, i wont lie most of the time you are ok and you keep going with everything because of the end results, but you will always have bad days, sorry! I too have questioned the whole religion and why thing. Recently in Perth we had a kid on the front of the news paper mag who was 8 monthes pregnant and homeless, at that time i would have been 8 monthes with my angel baby and i was like "who" or "what" makes the decision for a baby to come into that enviroment, instead of my loving, comfortable home and i just dont have an answer. Stay strong ( i know its easier said than done) and the drugs dont help. Know that we are all here for you anytime you need, rants and all. I really hope things are looking up for you soon.