HH - I am sorry you are finding yourself in this situation. I'm sure you are grieving the ending of your relationship and the end of the dream you had. Although I am not in your situation I do empathise with you. I sincerely hope that although one dream might be gone right now there are other dreams to be made and fulfilled very soon.
There is a TTC vent forum too if you would like a bit of a vent. We all need it from time to time.