I don't know how anyone can help, but I wanted to tell someone who might understand - that I feel alone.

I got my results back from the fertility clinic and I was told my anti-mulleria is very low for my age group and my cycle results were inconclusive (so i have to do another blood test) and that I need to focus on trying to have children now and not put it off...

But my relationship with my partner has fallen off the rails completely, and I honestly feel it's over. I don't love him anymore. We even called off the engagement and wedding.

I'm not really upset about the relationship, but i'm upset for myself. I know cannot change my results, and i've been told I can take some sort of drug which regulates my cycles, but it feels like the dream is gone. And having to start again with someone else will be challenging. I mean, it's not like you go into a relationship saying, "so, i'm not sure we'll work out, but i want to have kids" - it's just a weird thing to do.... but that's what's happening and so I feel alone.

I don't have any friends in a similar situation - i only have young friends who idealistically view the world and don't want to have kids because they'd be bringing them into a world with war and hate. So i can't even find sympathy/ empathy there. And all I want is a little care and understanding.