Ree - I hate it when DH can't make it to any appointments - let alone ET.... ... but I guess sometimes we just have to suck it up and deal with it.... take a photo of the embryo and share it with him later.... maybe him not being there is a good omen...?? you'll never know either way! Good job with the brekkie - I need to get onto that myself!

Miss B - I do hope the symptoms settle down soon. xxx

N2L - wow - so much to process! the whole idea of lap band is pretty scary too, isn't it... I wish you lived around the corner and we could be walking buddies in the morning - I need help with motivation as well... big hug for you - with all that going on, I feel for you. A little spanish baby might be nice

Mrs P - FX you're wrong and the lack of symptoms is seriously an illusion...

Andie - sounds like you've got a lot to think about too.... so many things we put ourselves through, right....? big hug for you too

Mrs Mac - FET is definitely easier.... hope it works for you!

Jane - glad the nausea has dissappeared a bit.... I think I put a barrier around it sometimes too - that's okay though, you do whatever you have to do to survive - and seriously in the end, if it's going to stick it will... I'm not sure it matters what we think or not... regardless.... but we will all keep looking for the jinxes, and 'signs'.... or put up a wall... it's just survival mode - look after yourself.

Big hello and good luck to anyone I had missed. I do hope you are all well xxx


AFM.......
thanks everyone for your messages - yesterday was a tough day, but a good day. My best friend and I have been quite distant the last 12 months, partly my fault and partly hers - although I'm not sure she realises her contribution... but anyway... neither of us have been there for each other as much as the other one has needed - vicious circle really... she's had a new baby who didn't sleep during the day for the first 10 weeks and still has hell trying to get him down - they are going to sleep school this week... and she needed me to pop over clean and give her a break and all that...(she has PCOS and got preg naturally after 23 months of trying...) but I needed my BFF to check in on me and look after me. So it's been a bit messy - I found it really hard that she made some other friends godparents (which is totally my issue - and totally fair enough! They have been there, and I haven't!) so yesterday was a real challenge for many reasons.... anyway.... we didn't talk about anything, but there was a couple of moments, and I think things might be better.

I had (another) good cry last night in bed with DH (added to the 4 hours I spent at home on wednesday crying...) you'd think my tear ducts would have all dried up! I guess it comes down to me having to bite the bullet and continue on the weight loss path - there's nothing else to it, whether or not it makes a difference I have to know I have done everything I can. But in the meantime, I will just eat healthy and hope it falls off a bit during this cycle... ha ha.... pretty hard with all those drugs pumping through me...

I was wondering if the pill is messing with my hormones and making all these emotions worse..... I never noticed it before... but just wondered, with everything else, if it's making it worse at the moment....