In the end I called mum back last night. She said it was a quiet conversation between her and the aunt and uncle that know. Nobody else was around. Yeah, right - the whole idea of my mum and quiet just doesn't fit.

Then she got all freaked out because I was in a state when I called her, and started to do her usual sulking thing about being accused of doing the wrong thing. She even tried to tell me that if the rest of the family know they would be sympathetic. I do not want pity! Because quite simply they just won't understand and will say the wrong thing. I tried to explain to mum about the anxiety disorder... and she just kept telling me to stop stressing - like I can help it! Certainly, I'll just stop worrying about things because I've been told not to, she just doesn't get that it doesn't work that way, and I can't really help what happens when something triggers an anxiety episode. I'm still running through what the FS talked about... Does it matter now? Will it matter in XXX amount of time? Am I imagining the worst? What can I do to find out the truth? Can I give this problem to DH and take it off my plate? Running myself through those questions is helping - and it usually gets me to take some sort of positive action towards resolving the problem that has arisen... but if my mother just doesn't get it, things are going to be... interesting... where she is concerned.

I suspect I also have some news on the letrozole front... I'm starting to feel twinges and niggles in my ovaries! I think it may actually work! Although, last night's OPK was completely blank, so I still have my doubts. I just can't help myself - I'm temping, checking CM, using OPKs... if I'm going to ovulate, it's not going to sneak by me!

BW