My day just gets better and better... phone call from my mother!

Now, the background so that this makes sense - I come from a very large, very Dutch family - think loud, lots of food, lots of gossip. And every single damn one of them (mum has 4 sisters and one brother) has conceived easily... Except mum's brother's wife who has PCOS and went through the whole AC thing about 20 years ago. I'd been keeping in touch with my aunt via email lately - as she's the one person in the family who can actually sorta understand what we're going through here. I hadn't got around to calling mum since shortly after the EPU. The majority of said family all live in Newcastle, so there are often big family dinners that I never even know about until afterwards, and there was one such dinner last weekend... at which point my aunt told my mum about our 4 snowbubs. Now, I'm fine with that, I was going to call mum eventually and let her know sooner or later... but now I'm convinced that the whole damn extended family knows about us doing IVF - this is so NOT what I wanted! Yes, I have told a lot of people, because I feel that support is needed... but the control over who knows and who knows what is the one little bit of control that you actually have in this process, and now I'm feeling like that's all been snatched away from me. And next time I see the whole extended family if I'm NOT pregnant, they're ALL going to be all "poor little BW" over me... I just can't face that! Particularly as the next time I see them all is likely to be Christmas and if I'm not pregnant by then, I'm SO not going to be in the mood to face it all! It's not as if Christmas isn't hard enough anyway without that!

I feel like I'm playing whack-a-mole with the anxiety issues at the moment - no sooner do you get one thing sorted out, then another pops up. I just can't win!

BW