thanks BW - i was just saying to DH that i'll be fine once he goes. i find it easier to say goodbye if i'm the one leaving him - he hates leaving so procrastinates, and i just get all worked up over it - if i have to take him somewhere for work, i'm able to walk away when it all gets too much for me,

have organised food for him for a few days (well, not dinner, he can buy that, but everything else he can possibly need) - and am giving him a hot feed soon so he'll be leaving here content - just hope we can both keep it that way!