Thanks Ellie and Mel... had a lovely dinner out tonight chatting with Sarah and Holly about things. I think then that I realised that while I can sit here and feel like I'm ready to go again, the thought of being in that transfer chair is just a little too confronting still. It's easy to feel like you're ready to go again when you are still so far away from it. I think I just need to keep reminding myself that I need the test results and I need to see the psychologist... The FS didn't put me through all that for fun and games, he put me through it all to make sure I wasn't going to end up in an even worse state of mind, and these are all the things that I've got to do first.

BG, I'm so glad you've 'fessed up at last. It's so hard sitting on news like that and needing to keep your mouth shut. I have to confess that I did end up telling Holly, but only because I'd assumed she'd have already read it here and she hadn't!

and now... I so desperately need sleep!

BW